tindakbalas berantai

pernah suatu ketika dahulu saya melihat seorang sahabat yang begitu gigih memujuk hati kekasihnya supaya kembali membina semula harapan yang telah hancur. dalam pada yang sama gadis yang menjadi punca kehancuran itu pula terlalu berharap bahawa beliau meninggalkan bekas kekasinya dan seterusnya melakar jalan cerita baru. walhal gadis itu sendiri sedang berhadapan dengan masalah bekas kekasinya yang mana terus-terusan menggangunya setiap hari agar dia dapat bersamanya semula. apalah yang dikatakan dengan nasib, lelaki itu juga mempunyai skandal tetap yang setia menunggu masa sang kekasih pergi untuk merampas hatinya. adapun begitu, si gadis skandal tiada ketinggalan dalam rantaian ini kerana sebelum ia menjadi setia untuk menunggu masa, dia telah memberikan sepenuh simpati kepada sang miskin yang alim. namun, rantaian buat sang skandal berbeza kerana sang miskin adalah seorang yang cerdik. hanya sang skandal yang merasa dirantai. iaitu oleh rasa bersalah. sang miskin tidak memohon hati, dia makan sayur. suatu hari sang alim pergi ke pasar membeli sayur. sayur itu sebelumnya hadir dari ruang belakang sebuah lori. sebelum ia menjadi hijau ia adalah sebutir benih yang tidak berupaya menyerap air dan matahari. sang alim membawa sayurnya ke rumah. dimasaknya semangkuk sup bersama beberapa ketul daging sotong. lalu dijamah dan dicernakan olehnya makanan itu. empat jam selepas itu ia ke tandas. mengangkat tangan dan ploop!

analogy is like metaphor

if love is like Lego, i don't want to waste my brick building a skyscraper when i know i can build a town with many houses. imagine if every house is equipped minimal everything. even if it is small, it would be hard for you to do bad onto them because most of the times you didn't see them. our sympathy toward small things prevails each times we hold them. and of course, if you choose to build houses from a dismantled skyscraper, you can have many of them. this is what i see love as, the bigger it gets, the taller it gets, the more it will be prone to destruction especially when it is a big non-existence. 

the experiment

i like to do experiments. most of the time i did it with human - woman to be exact.

i like to play the game called leave n' watch. the rule is simple : choose a girl, pour her tremendous attention, make her want you until her future no long fit for anyone else to enter. 

then, slowly cut your attention. loose the tie to communicate. let her fly as free as a free creature freeing from the free itself. and at the end she will lost her trust to you. of course will be the perfect time to make her dump you. but at first she will be reluctant to let you go. on the basis of hope she believe that she can change you or herself. therefore, this experiment requires you to learn hope-cancellation technique. 

most of the time i succeed.

after a few times, the subject return to claim default factory setting. five out of five sample has acquired some permanent damage on thier body, two of them however turn up to be nicer-than-bitch. a little twist here and there and walla, reset button found!. ones i push that button, they'll be good as default and there you go, problem fixed.  

i dont know why some people go mad when they broke up. its fun, you should try it. i promise you it will be waaay cooler than bungee jumping.

(i claim responsibility for what I've done and wrote. do leave a comment. FYI, this is also an experiment). notice that i didn't use the 'L' word?

:)

never should

lets make karipap and never mourn, 
remember the dead and kiss the newborn, 
for life will surely be good, 
without love that never should.

adakah aku cinta padamu?

melampaui bayang-bayang ragu
sekuat sungai yang deras
seceria burung yang melayang
sewangi udara musim bunga

seperti sedalam dalamnya
dari lurah hingga ke langit
seperti ibu menjunjung
anak yang dikandung

sepertinya zikir sang pendeta
dan kitab yang penuh doa
dari bisik kepada jerit
bagai terlimpah tiada sedikit

akan ku perlihatkan mataku
dan kuperkongsikan malamku
semoga dalam tidur abadiku
berdendanglah namamu

adakah aku cinta padamu?
tidakkah kau tahu?
adakah aku cinta?
perlukah aku tunjukkan?
adakah aku cinta padamu?
perlukah ku ucap selalu?
adakah aku cinta padamu?
ya, segala galanya.

excuse me while i disappear

i need a moment to deliberate.

tak faham bai

hari ini saya mengada-ngada mahu menulis tentang GST yang saya kira amat mengelirukan. atas beberapa sebab yang di petik dari sini

Rakyat dapat merasakan manfaat serta-merta pelaksanaan cukai barangan dan perkhidmatan (GST) dengan menikmati harga lebih murah untuk pelbagai jenis barang. --cool, ni sudah bagus

Dengan pelaksanaan GST, peniaga boleh menawarkan harga yang lebih murah hasil penjimatan daripada pembayaran cukai.  --ok, rakyat kena GST peniaga boleh turun harga, kalau depa tak mau macam mana? meniaga bukan mau untung ka? 

GST akan menurunkan Indeks Harga Pengguna (IHP) tetapi ini tidak bermakna IHP mesti turun selepas GST dilaksanakan kerana jatuh naik IHP turut dipengaruhi faktor lain.  --ok faham, lepas kerajaan buat GST harga mungkin tak turun mungkin tak naik. abis apsal buat? 


Kamariah berkata, kerajaan pada masa sama juga akan berbincang dan memujuk pasar raya besar di negara ini supaya mengekalkan harga lama jika harga barang berkenaan meningkat selepas GST diperkenalkan. --haha ini paling lawak, kalau depa merajuk takmau turun harga macam mana? ni nak pujuk pakai apa? mainan ke?

kami mahu peniaga menyelaraskan harga secara berpatutan --kalau harga berpatutan tu depa yang tentukan macam mana?

Kami meminta pasar raya menyerap perubahan harga yang disebabkan oleh pelaksanaan GST -- ini aku tak faham

Kamariah berkata, pendapatan cukai kerajaan melalui GST pada kadar empat peratus adalah kurang berbanding perolehan SST lalu mendorong kerajaan mengambil langkah lain untuk menampung kekurangan yang bakal berlaku. --ok, kerajaan kurangkan cukai lepas tu nak tambah pendapatan. lagi tak faham.

Beliau menegaskan, dasar kerajaan untuk melaksanakan GST bukan bertujuan mengatasi defisit fiskal negara tetapi menyelesaikan kelemahan dalam cukai jualan dan perkhidmatan serta mempelbagai sumber pendapatan negara. --oh maknanya kerajaan bukan nak cari untung. macamana dengan GST sumber pendapatan jadi pelbagai?

Green Certificate

hello there, i have a suggestion. we need to have a certificate of green management for our residential colleges' and faculties' cafeterias, offices, faculties and shops.

for cafeterias and shops the evaluation will be base on how well they promote and impose regulatory of low plastic consumption. should the rating be done in A B C, 'A' would be best given to those which shows serious effort to reduce plastic waste.

for faculties and offices, what matter most is the efficient energy management. this is simply to turn off light and air-conditioner when no longer in use. if the implementation of this certificate is highly promoted, both student and official will likely take part in order to gain the highest rating for their department and faculties. thus, taking UKM GO GREEN to the level that everybody can engage.

in my point of view, this certificate is to acknowledge the seriousness of our effort to save the earth be it locally. if this initiative is successful in UKM it may also grow larger to the extent that companies would want us to certified their green effort just like ISO.

if we can have Halal, Cleanliness and ISO certificates, why can't we have one more. i mean, it's the earth we are trying to save here. Go Green! yeah!

this entry is dedicated to UKM Go Green Initiative

why we need to be skeptic?

Our everyday information comes from the media. But mainstream media are increasingly cozy with the economic and political powers they should be watchdogging. Mergers in the news industry have accelerated, further limiting the spectrum of viewpoints that have access to mass media. With Malaysia's media outlets overwhelmingly owned by for-profit conglomerates and supported by corporate advertisers, independent journalism is compromised. Therefore independent, aggressive and critical media are essential to an informed democracy.

Sadly however, many of self-regarded independent media has now proudly show their ugly head of shameless tendencies. To give you the reasons on why we need to be skeptical toward media, we might want have a look at this list.

Corporate Ownership
Advertiser Influence
Official Agendas
The PR Industry
Pressure Groups
The Narrow Range of Debate
Sensationalism

If i were to give mark according to this, many would fail.

You see, if you are a Malay, you might want to check who named to your race. Misinformation and censorship in the past create a confuse today's historian. If we let this happen, we might mistakenly regard some monkey in the jungle as orang asli. oops! we already did it to the orang utan.

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